I thought I knew what love was. I thought I knew what I was looking for or what I needed from someone. I thought I actually had it all. Sometimes things happen in a split second, turn your world upside down, and leave you numb and breathless with no words to speak. It’s probably the hardest experience one will experience…unless you get lucky.
It isn’t always going to go right. It isn’t always going to be butterflies and unicorns. Heartbreak happens. You learn from the experience, but in some aspect it can bring fearfulness. You become worried that it will happen again. Truth is, it might. Truth is, it might not. Truth is, it’s a chance you’ll have to make.
If you’re wondering why I am writing this, there is one person reading this that will understand. The rest of you, well, here is a little story.
The darkest moments of my life came not to long ago. I was a hot mess. I’m sure you have all had those moments where you just needed someone to be there, to silence the screams and brighten the darkness in your mind. Well, this person did that and so so so much more. At the time it seemed as if we were in a TV show called “Misery loves Company!” We were both having a rough time.
We immediately clicked. Now, I’m not a hard person to talk to by any means, but I believe a real deep genuine connection is made by more than just a common factor of misery. Passion, empathy, chemistry, etc. I fell deeply head over heels for this person. More than I ever have for anyone else in any way, shape, form, or desire.
Our lives started intertwining together. It became real and more so factual for me that this person is everything I ever wanted and more. This person still is. My heart and my soul are tangled in this person, they ache for them. Everyday.
I may be waiting, but this person will know everyday that they are loved so very much beyond any words or expressions. They will know that I never quit fighting for them. They will know that taking one leap of faith would be the best decision they ever made.
Being scared isn’t a bad thing. Truth is, I am scared too. I say, being scared together and overcoming that together will only strengthen that love and bond more.
Take a chance on me.